3am CURSE part 2

im not torturing myself
im just..
cant sleep

another sleepless night

gosh..
think of everything that i ever done..
how crazy huhh..
my brain is totally blank now






misleading

bloggin time!

well, nothing to do.. so post something over here. haizz.. too boring.. =.=''' guess wat, im now karaoke alone while typing~ haha.. just shout as loud as i can. my family member dont even care me, they just let me shout alone.. haha.. just now got sing one song, which i like it so much.. never feel tired listen to it! hu yan bin- yi nian qian! (lazy to type in chinese), sing so many songs.. even jolin's wu niang.. whoah.. bert's favourite! wakaka.. fish leong's ting bu dao, nian shao's just one moment! waliu~ how many of you can rmb this local group? david tao's jiu shi ai ni.. lol.. bla bla bla.. now sing wang lee hom's ni he wo lo.. wat a lame post.. release some stress~ chillax~~!!

一年前_胡彦斌

3am CURSE

another sleepless night..

every night look like a dead corpse..
how long can i stand for it?
to stop all of this?
hell..
pisses me off!
again and again,
torturing enough
with pointless reasons..
argh~
mood changed UNexpectedly.
well,
can i sleep now?

一个小小的玩笑

sematan trip

blogging helps me to fill up my boring days.. sigh of regret.. how could it happen to me. well, as the title written, i went to sematan last weekend. had been struggle for a lil time whether follow my family not.. this is because last saturday have golden melody award! gosh~ first time i missed the show. how sad.. but i did enjoy a bit over there. release my stress toward life no one dig a hole for me to hide..
its quite a big group of people we had joined for this trip together. all of them are my dad's friends and their family and also some business partner. total 17rooms we booked! whoah.. 1st time..

the mountain bike we rent. about 20 of people riding out in few groups.. i took about 1hr45min (20+km) for the whole journey. damn mountain route.. my butt.. shh shh.. haha.. no kidding. it hurts but exciting. im in 3rd position to arrive the resort oh.. hehe..

i did kayak too.. too bad that time i had already exhausted after cycling, my energy is not enough for me to fight with the waves! as the time past, we enjoy watching sunset..

night time.. whoahh.. BBQ dinner! i wonder how many cans of beer i have drank.. big feast!! the BBQ dinner is specially offered by the owner of the resort as my dad knew his god son well. all of the activities we can play over there is charged in a lesser price.. there's one activity i missed.. going to the opposite island.. heard they said is turtle island. i missed snorkeling!! wawa.. nvm.. go next time with friends will be more fun~

-end-

how long am i gonna wait..

reflection from mirror
wAiT || TiAw

wait? wait what? i hate time!! grr.. am i destined to wait?! never!!

when start school? 4august.. wait few more weeks..
when you have a new car? dont knOw, hope i have it as fast as possible.. wait long long ah!!no money for new car la..
when are you going to stop your boring life? how to stop?! maybe just after study? hmm..
when your sister back to kuching ha? 9august if not mistaken.. cant wait to see her
when your wife coming back from JB? dont know.. she dont even buy ticket yet! surely wait till next year too
when your affair coming back from there too? next year chinese new year! wait wait wait
when are you going to stop thinking nonsense? LOL.. it will stop some day right..
when are you going to seek the psychologist? nah.. control bit larr.. no more problems
when are you going to stop being crazy? err.. err.. lao zha bor! oi~ lao zha bor!
when are you going to stop acting silly?! lao zha bor.. lao zha bor..
when!!!?!!! oklah.. now.. =.='''
when..




when..



when..




enough okay? too free to blog oh.. go sleep!
walaa.. -end-




lao zha bor.. lao zha bor..

bla~ bla~ RE:

The things that expected to be happen,
might not be happen!! indeed true.. but sometime got larr.. that unlucky meh..
In contrast, the things that NEVER be expected, and make people like us suffer lo, frustrated!!
might be happen in anytime!!! please kill me.. (sometime think of that) dont suffer from depression

Happiness?? :)
Where should we get it from?? its our life.. cant even blame God.. so negative minded eh.. haha
Isn't from ourself?? ya.. from ourself.. find on your own!!
What is happiness actually?? happiness means.. i dont know! gosh~ i only know sad for this moment
[Different people have different point of view]

What is the purpose for us to live?? well.. our parents born us, no choice!
Do u happy with your life?? im happy for yesterday, today and tomorrow.. but i barely cant find the true happiness in entire life!! how sad huhh..
If not, then why we still making ourself suffering?? work hard la.. dont think muchh
[LIFE IS TOUGH]

Tears ..... (T.T) leave me alone.. huhu
What do u meant by tears?? err.. the water comes out from tear duct?? LOL
Isn't its hurt?? not that hurt la.. just sometime cry too long eye will swollen only..
Just to express our feeling?? ya.. but clarence ask me dont flood his house.. he say he dont want to online on the top of the roof!! this kinda friend also have.. sad sad
[Tears mean bleeding] OMG~ i bleed a lot! donate me some blood arrr~

Conclusion: I don't know what am I writing here!! ya ya.. me too, im just too boring and trying to make you feel better by writing some foolish word on ur post.. buddy arr.. got prob tell me la.. haizzz

Dont Laugh tiLL..

take a look on this few videos.. quite funny..
p.s. dont act like them.. TQ

• how to be a gangster-- http://youtube.com/watch?v=khFhF64P3VQ
• how to be emo-- http://youtube.com/watch?v=pK4bLMd0avU
• how to be nerd-- http://youtube.com/watch?v=ndiRRjCyV_E
• how to be ninja-- http://youtube.com/watch?v=JdLCEwEFCMU
  

For you, YOU

Have you ever wondered
which hurts you the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn’t?
or
saying nothing and wishing you had?
I guess the most important things
are the hardest things to say.
Don’t be afraid to tell someone
you love them.
If you do,
they might break your heart.
But
if you don’t,
you might break theirs
Have you ever decided not to become couple
because you were so afraid of losing
what you already had with that person?
Your heart decides whom it likes
and whom it doesn’t.
You cant tell your heart
what to do.
It does it on its own
when you least suspect it,
or even when you don’t want it to.
Have you ever wanted to love someone
with everything you had,
But that other person was too afraid to let you?
Too many of us stay walled up
because we are too afraid
to care too much..
For fear that the other person does not care as much,
or even at all.
Have you ever denied your feelings for someone
because your fear of rejection
was too hard to handle?
We tell lies when we are afraid of
what will be found out about us.
But every time we tell a lie,
the thing we fear grows stronger.
Life is all about risks
and it requires you to jump.
Don’t be a person who has to look back
and wonder what they would have done,
or you could have had.
What would you do if every time
you fell in love
you had to say good-bye?
What would you do if
every time you wanted someone
they would never be there?
What would you do
if your best friend died tomorrow (choi~)
and you never got to tell them how you felt?
(Even if it is that you don’t care anymore)
What would you do
if you loved someone more than ever
and you couldn’t have them?
What would you do
if you never got the chance to say
I am friends with all my family
and they know I love them?
People live,
but people die too.
I want to tell you that
you are a friend.
If you died tomorrow, (God forbid)
you would be in my heart.
Would I be in yours?
If you care about me
as much as I care about you,
I will be very grateful to you.
But if you don’t,
I won't blame you too.
You might be best friends one year,
pretty good friends the next years,
don’t talk that often the next,
and don’t want to talk at all the year after that.
So,
I just wanted to say,
even if I never talk to you again in my life,
you are special to me
and you made a difference in my life,
I look up to you,
respect you,
truly cherish you,
Most of all I care about friends
and I care about you,
the most SPECIAL ones..

quote from other place,
edited too