21

2weeks from now im 21!
but i dont feel the excitement.. (i think im still 17 though :P)
the number 21 doesnt set me free instead
21 means nothing to me!
im not independent yet
i live like a YOUNG KID man!!
i cant simply decide thing by my own (thanks to my parent for loving me so much)
i cannot go out without getting my parent's permission even until 21
i still get pocket money from them
i cannot get something costy although i save money for it
parent buzzing on the phone when im not home
i cannot stay out after curfew
nothing would change after the year 201o too (i guess??)
ever since.. nevermind..
i just need a little freedom.. aint need so much la if u really like to control us XD

yerrrr forget about celebrating it..
cuz i dont really feel like to
born on jan is kinda unlucky though, no one's here to celebrate with you
most of them werent at kuching too
luckily i got my mom, same birthdate with me *im the special one*
i feel grateful for this because it resemble something special between me and my mom
dont jealous k... haha











im cute right.............

99

"有一个美丽的小女孩
他的名字叫做奶奶.."
我们孙子们是这样唱给奶奶听的~
我们可爱吧。。



奶，过多几个小时我们会陪你庆祝生日哦。。
听说有烧猪XD

忘记咯

以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口


所以话别乱说
:O

@.@

有时候就是有想死的念头，撞墙死一了百了！没特别的原因，只是觉得很烦恼~什么事都没做好10.10.10... 那么好的日子，我既然会那么忧郁那么不快乐。。SIEN

my territory

(dont take serious on my edited thingy)

this is my working studio/study place
an important place for us architecture student
well.. compare to some other friends..
im considered a lucky one to have such a good place to study on or work on designs
some of them dont even have a proper space to use
( try have a look on that pic)
i got a customise drafting table from my dad,
he look for carpenter to do it for me..
dont look down on that wooden table, its tough and flexible
besides, i got my own desk that had acompany me for few years,
went through so many exams
and now it turns to my model making corner~
printer (which doesnt work for a year >.<)... shelves... table lamps... aircon... its all given by my parent, only for me.. all my siblings dont have but some how i feel a bit bored on this corner already yeah i know i should feel grateful for all these but hey you know what............... i feel so stressful because i got no inspiration for my work THATS WHY IM HERE TO POST BORING POST! SIGH~ sobs.. any idea to make my corner full of inspirations? lol -end-

T____T2

people who always inactive in blogging for a quite while will always start with this sentences below:
its been a while i didnt update my blog ( hehe dont angry guys, i did that too) been run out of mood to blog due to things happened recently since my last post. its actually refer to my grandmother who passed away on 8sept last wednesday. i just cant get over it easily because i witnessed the whole process. quite regret on the day before because im late to hospital, but luckily get one last chance to see her before she enter CCU. huhh cried terribly.. dont even get a single bit of mood to prepare my design crit. i even dreamt of her on the day she passed away, she sleeps damn well.. but dream often dont come true.. pity my sis too, that day was her birthday... boring post right.. just stop here since i dont know what else to write~

btw try to check today's 大万.. 4384 first prize.. 99 give one.. (99 refer to 奶奶) too bad my mom didnt get the prize because she didnt buy.... there is a special story behind this number, wanna know more? :) ask me

T____T

this is not good..

emo-ing

last day of week 3.. im still stuck on the same place.. tomorrow will be week4, please anyone help me... not on assignments, but to motivate me to continue move on.. oh sick..

off..

dont blame me for not updating much here.. somehow i feel tired of blogging and i lost all those inpiration when im getting busy.. mood swings anytime and i dont want myself to be disturbed.
*emo-ing*

1st week: haunted

last week is my first week of class started. it just happened so fast as the holiday is too short for us to heal from previous semester. i still can feel the tiredness. that's why i didnt prepare well during the class start. i didnt organise well with my assignments.. being thinking nonsense and also doubting about the "C" thingy. C is conscientiousness. people with this C will keep all their things in detail, focus too much on not necessary stuff and in worst will ended up in 7th mile! thats what im afraid the most.. anyone please come and wash my brain~ speaking about freaking thing happened in a week, i almost got 3 accidents.. first, a school girl walking across the road while tidy her hair.. she is quite stupid i can say.. wonder which is more important, hair or life!?! second is when i was driving to college.. the sound of the brake is so loud that scared every drivers on the road. really didnt drive fast or maybe my car is too near to others. 3rd time happened on my housing area, bad thing about local driver.. no signal light~ same thing happened again.. my car manage to stop inches away from the front car. damn~ im really startled that time.. i left my car aside and requested to change driver.. got a slight phobia after it.. sick~ i got piles of assignment waiting for me again

its a boring post.. i post for nothing.. dont read

2weeks past.. holiday is always good but i prefer not too long, because i get bored easily. my mood doesn't get way better after relaxing for 2weeks.. there is still weeks to go before holidays end. got not much plan on this holiday.

reasons?
1. cashless, holiday= no pocket money, i should earn more :(
2. stress come from family, no class=no car use=no money=become maid, babysitter and driver ( this is what i never understand, why they never use bus to school in fact that im the only child use bus among the 4?! WTF)
3. dad's theory, outing means waste money waste time and waste car fuel =.=''' ( where else i can go? any prob to go gym and swim??)

i do earn some allowance for myself what.. i often ask money from dad mainly for my assignments. we spend a lot of money on those shit because its costy. why cant we just submit softcopy instead of printing this and that.. honestly after all this, im deadly bankrupt. waiting for my next pocket money lalalaa... next kk trip will be the most interesting plan for this holiday. a SHORT trip.. other than that? no more~ shopping.. swim and gym if i could.. stay at home grow mushroom.. plenty of things can do at home actually, such as continue learning photoshop, sketchup and acad.. just that i got no mood to do it.. WHAT MORE THAN THAT? arhhhhhhh stop asking me to do housework! i hate it.. sobs.. and stop giving lame reason that girl should do housework, not boys..




and remember, im born to break this kinda shit rulez! teeheee

DAMN FUCK LIFE

FUCKKKKKKKKK

TIMEless

WHY IS THE TIME GONE SO FAST??
HAVING TERRIBLE HEADACHE


COUNTDOWN
7days

卫塞节

是的
今年又参加了游行
这次拿了第3名
（个人认为应该连第3都没有）
或许是评审觉得我们很努力吧~ ><''' *不解*

重点不在那。。

我想说本少爷现在心情很不好！
不知道吃了什么肚子真他妈的痛！
痛到全身发软~
也想起3年前的你也是肚子痛到不能睡，我还陪你到天亮
但这次换我一个人对着电脑~
玩fb和blogging
谁来陪我。。



痛~
（比较好一点了）


please let me sleep.. i got work to do tomorrow..



他妈的痛啊
:(

super TIRED

this sem is really in a mess! due to some kind reasons~ in result, we are all super fu**in damn tired.. and our schedule never can arrange well.. cant help with the stress and tiredness. REALLY frustrated with the assignments we have.

LISTS of assignment ( that kills~!)
1. tent- group work~ some how i can see the cooperation between group members but mostly NOT. its either missing in action or some kind of lame reasons. that makes people really sick of it damn much~~ and the due date is getting nearer, there is still some undone work to be done asap by tomorrow.. thursday have to bring the tent to lundu and set on the beach WITHOUT any failure, if not i will cry for my marks..

2. piles of reports to do- doing report is always the big problem for me.. as i cant help much on that. the only thing i can do is compile information for research and ask somebody to help me on the reports. p.s. still in the learning stage on doing a proper report~ heee.. *dont scold me for that*

3. the upcoming final project for my design ( floating house)- gonna do site analysis at the same place, lundu, searching for lecturer to become my client and im gonna design a house for them.. can consider as a very challenging and fun project.. but will worry of it at the same time..

4. betong site visit- dont know why must we go there.. as i only know when i reach there i will be a great blood donor to mosquitoes~ sigh.. most of the people is yelling about the trip.. but what can we do? bear with it.. JUST GO.. some more is 4day 3night feeding mosquito trips.. SOBS..

5.. 6.. 7..

just stop here.. im tired.. BYE

(some more soon...)

crying bun

finally cry out SILENTly
since 10min ago..
im stressed

'某某'之旅vs友情

以上的标题。。（写爽的~）没灵感写了。反正过了一整天什么感觉都没了。别人都看得出今天的我怪怪的。是的，今天想了很多，但都是乱想。。脑筋一片空白~这次的schedule忙死我了（虽然有时会偷懒）希望每样东西都能简单化一点，好让自己不被忙死，乱死，烦死！关于那该死的某某之旅，大多数是没去的了，不是我能掌控在内的东西。没辙！真是对不起。。你心里想的东西我恐怕猜也猜不透，毕竟很多年都没联络了。



疑问：“难道只有在那某某地方才能挽回友谊吗？”







我的答案：不解

忍无可忍

真是难搞
辛辛苦苦爬到sem3,4
你还不明白什么叫design吗？
拜托啦。。
都在这里打滚快两年了
还在那里搞不清楚状况
每次有groupwork的时候
为什么每个人都不敢要你
连你兄弟都撇开你
因为他们懂你的程度到哪
还记得sem1
我还在你面前大骂 “以后不再跟你同组！！”
别怪我，在设计的世界是残忍的。。自私的。。
sem3 了，但现在又发生同样的事
你又跟我们同组
啊~~
别问那些蠢问题！
“ can we use last sem design?"
这种话留给你以后用
设计的定义是什么你还没搞懂吗？
拜托争气点
你的好兄弟虽然有时说的话很难听，但都是真心话
少来你那些大男人自尊心
我不吃那一套
因为
纵容你只会害死我自己
你不会再想害多一次吧？
别惹毛我
醒醒吧
design class eh..
那么重要的科目
一旦不及格随时想跳楼的科目

physically TIRED

tired
tired
tired
.
.
.

maybe its been too long i didnt go for badminton
damn the weather so hot too
*lazy to upload pics*
doze off soon..

but daddy ask to go for dinner at outside..
grr.. haven finish blogging
BYE

没礼貌

今天是上课的第二天

当我与几位朋友将离开时

突然

又一位小姐，不知看到什么

匆忙地 迅速地

插我的队！挡到我的路

这时。。什么东西都不知道的我～

眼角闪过奇怪的影子

啊。。 有人在后头

原本想让路的我

突然感觉有些不对劲

在走楼梯时再望回后面

哇！

......

没礼貌哦 audrey ling!

怎么可以这样